It's a slow good night
And I just don't know how to feel
He takes his foot of the gas
Cause we're moving to fast
But I'm the one straped in behind the wheel
And it's a longer ride
And I'm on an even kill
Till his foots on the brake
Like it's all a mistake
He remembers how he's not suppose to feel
And I say I believe this is killing me
Don't go, Don't go, yeah
I say I believe this is killing me, Don't go
And if the hardest fight
When all of my armor has pealed
My defenses are down
He retreats without a sound
From the silence his intentions are revealed
And I say I believe this is killing me
Don't go, Don't go, yeah
I say I believe this is killing me, Don't go
I just don't want you to go
Yeah, I say I believe this is killing me
And maybe I'm just holding onto something your not holding onto any longer
I wish that I could let it go and let my senses take control
So that we could finally end this war
And I say I believe this is killing me
Don't go, Don't go, yeah
I say I believe this is killing me, Don't go
I just don't want you to go
I believe this is killing me
Can't believe I should leave him be
I believe this is killing me
Don't Go
well its been a very long time since ive wrote in this thing, lets see here things have been very good lately some ups some downs with everything...right now things with jon are perfect yet so far away from perfect...we've been fighting alot but always over nothing and idk i just want it to stop and so does he i just idk im afraid hes going to leave me...and hes afraid im going to leave him...i just couldnt stop crieng this morning after we had a talk and while were talking i just idk...i thought things were better after we talked it out but then we got into another fight not even 5 hours later...so who knows..i mean i dont think it will end only because of how much we love each other..well i know for sure of how much i love him..i would do anything for him..hes my world my everything...i dont think i could survive without him..i just want everything to be ok...and everything i feel for him he feels for me...that just gives me the strength to feel its ok...i just want him to know how much i love him thats all and to never forget that..
i love you jon....
<3 jackie
